Im Myself alone.

I have discovered the joy
of caring less
about branded stuff
about visibility and significance
about what others think of me
about how I look

I have given up on cool, good-looking self
on the creams that don't ever help pimps
I have finally accepted
that those unsightly look of mine
will probably be a part of me foreva
I can now overlook being overlooked

I do not need to be self-centered anymore
I could just be what I wanna be
I can miss a cathedral or a museum
and take my time to online instead
I don't have to be adorable, fun & charming
to captivate people
or look into mirrors for hours
Just to get that particular look

I'm not pretending to be cool
I'm not fighting for center stage
I'm not competing for any favors
I don't owe anyone anything

And as I watch others
struggle to be the best
I can juz sit peacefully in the twilight
enjoying each moment
with a big mug of hot chocoa...

`-MeL- 23.5.2005